life's-a-mess

F-ING lame.

2009-07-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

WARNING!
ROCKER, LAMERS AND GUYS ONLY.

SEE I TOLD YOU. GUYS ONLY!
HAHAHA O_o

Its never too late

2009-07-06T22:57:00.002+08:00

It dawned upon me, as a human being, i have nvr reli worked hard enough.
It's always "I'm so tired.", or "This is my limit."

How self- manipulating a human mind is!! LOL
BOredomness, fatigue, reluctancy. All these contributes to how self deceiving the human mind is.

How i hope i can hav such enormous willpower to overcome my own mind. LOL
Now, my motivation, come from this quote.

"Run, Run until you can't run anymore, then run again."
How inspirational. Hurhur

And finally, i think i've really let things go.
Its being quite sometime now, it's a relieve that i didn't take any longer than this.

And, anyway, i've got this feeling lately.
"It's never too late."
Looking into the life of singaporean, only one word came to mind.
"Rush."
But still, if you can just do some adjustment to ur own life, it's never too late for anything.

Things like waking up early, completing work earlier. These are things that contributes to you having more free time for yourself.

Personally, i'm still wrking hard on the above mentioned. But nevertheless, l'll try my best, especially waking up early. HAHAHA

End of today's post. Its boring i noe. Await next time ok?
=D

SCREAM!

2009-06-21T12:49:00.003+08:00

I was you-tubing remix of screamos when i came across this suck ass song!

BUt wait, Now for a just for laugh.

Funny eh? Family guy rule the world man. Haa

The next one is the original version of the song. Its not funny but the rap is good.

P.S. Anyone raise ur hand if u wanna watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past! (Please don go raising up ur hand at home when u see this. Tag me instead. Haha )

Take care peeps =D

P.S. P.S. P.S. P.S. P.S. P.S. P.S.

Sorry for the sudden intrude, but this is one hell of a vid and i must share it!
I don't know what is it about or for whatever cause it is for, but for now, WATCH IT!

TO hell.

2009-06-17T01:11:00.004+08:00

Drag Me To Hell!

Obviusly, SHE is the female lead.

AHHHHHH~
The scary old Auntie of this fabulous show!
Haha, for those who alredi watched it should get what i mean.

FOr those who have not, watch it and enjoy the performance of this OMNIPOTENT old lady.

Hurhur.

=D

Terminator!

2009-06-03T00:27:00.007+08:00

Terminator~
Terminator~
Terminator~
Terminator~
Terminator~

Okay nia~
But fucking indian make the whole show alot more uncomfortable for us,
shall not elaborate further. Lol.

So long nvr update. Hahas, guilty on that aniwae xp

Life is bo~ring, work work work.
Now have to work at suntec cause i'm posted to help out in my company's bookfair, rather than working in the office. Sian~

Long long time nvr bball. Sadded =/

Faster ask me out for bball anione!!
Haas

Here's another vid, don really care if anione watch it, but i like the song n how the video is made.

This is a edited video but if u want to see the real mtv of this song. Go google "ghost of you".

Haas, sometime i seriously wonder does anione share the same song interest in me, but den, who cares =p

Here's the video.

=]

Fav song current XD

2009-05-24T23:38:00.002+08:00

EVryone, my fav song. Its lollipop in ROCK version.

Cool ya!

The first half is talking talking, if u r bored of it, forward it til 2 mins like that, den enjoy and rock it, Hurhur.

WOO~

2009-05-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

new skin new skin new skin.

SImplicity alert. Wahaha.

I'm missing many people right now.

It's been long since i saw many of my friends.

Work work work. It's getting so boring.

Guys ask me out if u miss me.

Hees =p

The saddest part of life.

2009-04-28T23:33:00.003+08:00

Everyday.

Every single day, i will go pass the places where it was once filled with so much memories.

I can't stop it from happening.

I bloody hell work there.

And what can i do except to keep thinking of you.

And missing you like a bloody idiot.

Haas, what irony.

Anyway, now my life is like so cool, except the working part.

Work, play basketball, eat, sleep, talk to friends.

Enjoying myself.

Let's hope, i am contented.

Actually, i should be contented.

Who is there whenever u suffer a heartbreak.

Who is there when u needed someone to talk to.

Who is there when u needed a helping hand.

Who is there when u needed MONEY?( Maybe this only apply for me. Hahaha)

Friends of course.

Lolx.

What will be life without friend you say?

If u r good looking or flirty, you will live through everyday with mild pleasured sex, cause u r simply too boring and sex is the only thing u do to pass ur time.

If you are just average looking like me and when sex doesn't really means much of a thing to you. You'll be rotting at home watching porn.

HAHAHA.

Disclaimer. I don't do that often, i still got friends.
Wahaha

OKay, done with some rantings, take care all my friends.
Let's get mushy a little.

SMOOCHIE~~~
^-^

Faverets

2009-04-22T01:21:00.003+08:00

HI all.

Here to introduce abot my fav taiwan celebrities(actually just wanted to show a video. But better do some intro first.)

Actually, xiao Zhong is my 3rd fav.

1st. Luo Zhi Xiang, simply cause he is shuai.

2nd. Jacky Wu. Funny ass

Last but not least, the main singer of this vid. Xiao Zhong.
Just finish the vid and u will know why i simply
can't stop loving him. HAHAHA

I Miss You

2009-04-19T02:26:00.003+08:00

The images.

The memories.

The presence.

It's all still fresh in my mind.

Anyway. Watched "17 again" again.
Watched twice but this time, it's "Boss" ricky treat.
Haas, no worries ricky, the money will be in ur bank by next week.

It was all in all a pretty nice show.

Though im no gay. BUt Zac Efron.
Woo~La~La~

HAHAHA!
Told u i'm no gay people.

I mean seriusly, i still like girls!!
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HAHAHA!!!!
Enuff with gaying.
Bet all the girls are gona jump happily upon this post.
SO eyefeast on him and forget about all the good singaporean guys.

Wahahahaha!!
Bye peeps.
Till next time!!

Running from the beginning. Again.

2009-04-14T01:12:00.005+08:00

Peeps.
Thanks for the tags.
They really work.
At the very least, i felt a bit better.

MUahahaha.

Anyway. This is currently my favourite video of the year.
I swear, it's gonna stay as my favourite for this whole year......

Er hem...
Unless some real amazing porn video like 2ND TAMMY NYP!
Or EDISON CHEN WITH FIONA XIE OR S.H.E!

or else, nothing gonna beat this cute vid.
Enjoy!!!!

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Just press play if u think got ani problem with it. Cause from my lappie it was a little sot. Just press play to watch it. Hur hur

A start.

2009-04-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.
Its been a long long time since i blogged.
Had been real hectic for me though this past weeks.

Heex.

Anyway, am suffering from broken heart right now.
Don't ask me why cause u probably would know.
Don't try to cheer me up, cause it probably won't cure.

But hey, leave a tag in my tagboard and i will smile.
Wahahaha.

Goodbye peeps.
And i love the song thats playing.
Kekeke.

Til next time =D

Your choice. Live with it.

2009-03-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

What am i really feeling?
Love?
Like?

I can't answer you that.

To love, is to unconditionally give, and to expect no return.

Provide the utmost care and concerns, and forgive any mistakes commited.

Understand each other needs, and give it selfishlessly.

Hug him/her whenever she is feeling down or angry.

Last but not least, whatever he/she does. Forgive.

To like, is to have control of him/her.

Expect him/her to be by your side whenever you need them.

Expect him/her to listen to whatever you say.

And lastly, abandon him/her when problem arises.

Me??
I'm a little of both.
Can't really put myself on the scale where i can say i love someone.
But still, i always try to love, instead of like.

If there was a chance, i'd always hope that forever existed.

Now, i'm working really hard toward this goal.

To be forever with the one i entrusted my feelings on.

Trials, problems and sadness, this will be the stuffs that i'm willing to go thru and endure.

So that one day, we can really be together, forever.

Haas, this whole time i've always been a guy, who thinks alot.
And i've just discovered, things that went through my mind, will eventually lead to a unpleasant ending.(in my mind)

Guess, i really am someone who think too much.

Its time to learn, how to let go of some things.
And in the meanwhile, pluck up the courage to forgive and forget.

Hees.
ILOVEIRENE
ILOVEIRENE
ILOVEIRENE
ILOVEIRENE
ILOVEIRENE

She won't see it but who cares.
Thats what i really feels right now.
Haas

Bye to those who read this.
It was not that interesting, but i know some of you out there still are able to take all this craps that i wrote.

kekeke

=)

Till next time;

The pain of it.

2009-03-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

Missing someone, really feels like hell.

=(

Anyway, im so bored that i decided to blog.

But i don't really have a mood for this.

Hmmmmm.

Well maybe, we'll leave it for the next time.

And anyway, it's being such a long time since i did this.

But here goes....

Dear dear i miss you so much. Have to work for 2 bloody weeks straight.

That leaves me with no time for you.

Awwwwwwww....

I'm so sad now, i can't even continue typing.

HAHAHA

OKae we'll leave the rest for next time.

Bye peeps.

Irene.

Iloveyou =)

What are we to others??

2009-03-04T01:05:00.005+08:00

woots woots woots

MY BRITHDAYYYYYY!!!
WAHAHA
OKae. im not that happy lah, but at least, i grew a year older without going through any major trouble.

At the very least. I'm still alive. Wahaha.

Aniwae, here to post something though.

Gals and Guys. Here's a question for you.
How many times have you seen an opposite sex drop tears before?

Please don't consider those little kids friend you have while you were in kindergarden.

That's dumb.
HAHAHA

Anyway, this is a question for u to start pondering about ur own personality.

You see the question in another way, how many guys/gals will drop their last line of self-security, and proceed to the stage of total breakdown in front of you?

Haas, this question will sure get you going. Cause im pretty sure many of you will feel sad cause maybe, just maybe, none had ever drop their last line of defence when they are with you.

For me, i drop the defence rather easily. Haas, okae, i won't beat around the bush.

I'm
a
CRYBABY!!!!

But a cute one though.
WAHAHA.

So back to the question. If your answer to the question is:
"Yeah, i had seen many gals/guys cried infront of me when they confides in me."
Then good for you, you are one of those easily trusted human species, and most likely ur fren treats u like a gem.

What about if your answer was:
"Hmm, yeah my mum/dad cried infront of me when i told them my o level results."
Haas, den its time for you to start wondering what are you to others.
Or more specifically, where do you stand in that person heart/mind.

Don't be depress or feel useless when you've found out that you are not one of those rare gems(like me xD). Maybe you just don't have any crybaby friends(unfortunately, like me also.)

Rather, think about how much you love your friend and how much they love you.

I know that, in this world, every man lives for themselves.
This ironic rules were set to benefit each individual human being on a singular level.

We were born to think about how to benefit ourself, and ourself only.
Thus, many a time, not much effort were given as people know that more effort does not mean more return.

Truth to be told, no one likes to lose out, all man for themselve is the right way to live.

Still, sometimes i wonder:
"Why do i care more about the benefits gained from my effort?? Why don't i just try to give more to my love one cause they simply deserve it?"

Since some time ago, i've already told myself.
If i love someone, whether is it my family, my friends or my partner,
I should just give them my best, even when i not sure of what i will get in return.

The reason why, is stated above.
They deserve it.

If you love someone, give it ur all.
It doesn't really matter what u will get in return, it doesn't even matter if the opposite party don't put in more, or sad to say, same amount of effort as you. Just do your part and love that person like how you should, rather than stressing yourself out by comparing who have more love.

Haas.

Sorry for the long crap, just some thoughts to voice out.

Feel free to reference and comment on it.

Negative comments are allowed but not welcome.
Kekeke

Takecare frens.
For those that i've not seen them for a long time.
Feel free to ask me out. Heex.

Take care everyone. =]

P.S.
Those who alredi started ITP. SO SAD!!! I'm still enjoying holidae. MUAHAHAHAHA.

BYEEEE~

The time have come.

2009-02-22T19:55:00.006+08:00

Finally, final weeks of most student's final exams.
phewwwww.

What a hectic semester many of us survivied through,

and lets hope all the efforts we've put in will bear good fruits =)

Anyway, i have something i wanna talk about.

it has been pondering my mind for quite some time now.

There are 2 types of people that i know of, let me briefly explain how i differentiate them.

There's this question that i like to ask them.

"Single or taken, which is better."

Hence, the conclusion seperates them to 2 category.

1. "It's better to have to someone to take care of"(guys);

"It's better to have someone to love and to take care of you"(girls).

"its better to have a girlfriend, cause can kiss n hug, and fuck them in the end"(fucking cheebye kia)

Im not in the fucking chee bye kia category. Kekeke.

2. "Being single is the best, you can do whatever you want without the need to bother about what the other party may feel. It's more stress-less this way".

Honestly speaking, i can't bear the feeling of being single. Envyness, jealousy, loneliness are the feelings that flooded me when i was single.

I may have friends around me, great friends to speak of, that spends quality time with me every single day, but it just felt different when there's someone closer to you.

I need to love someone, and frankly speaking, i need to know that my partner loves me too. Its gay, i admit. Haas

So here comes the question.

How would anyone be able to come up with answer NUMBER 2?

To me, it's pretty much impossible that friends are ever enough.

I believe there exist a really strong bonds between friends,
and friends are always there when u are in need.

But yet, i don't really agree when people say that in the end, its friends
that always stood by you no matter what happens.

Hahas, i may offend almost all my friend by saying this, especially
those who stood by me during my down time. (Thanks for them anyway,
Friends like E***, D****, S****, R**** and many many more.)

But personally, i strongly believe that finding a right partner holds
more importance than finding a right friend.

True, friends can be there for a long long time, i can even name
a few now for those that i'll definitely make an effort to retain the
bond between us for a long long time. but in case some of
them may paiseh, i shall leave that for some other time.

But still, in the end the one you will be spending your lifetime with,
is with that special someone. Thus, next time if some one gonna
give me answer NUMBER 2, i'm gonna simply laugh it off,
give them a "Tsk", and tell them it's simply impossible according
to the little conclusion i've come up with.

Haas, yet i'm now asking myself, who the fuck am i to downright judge
people that way. I'm still 19 and i'm not even sure whether i'll be able
to keep things going my way. I can't even guarantee i'll marry the
woman who i spend my time with now.

Haas.

Therefore, i shall end this post with a tight slap to my face for judging
people like that. And anyway, i started this post as i remembered that
i was once a person with answer NUMBER 2, and now i knew it was a
load of bull coming out from my mouth.

Thus friends, next time if u catch me with answer NUMBER 2 again.
Kindly laugh behind my back and not infront of me. kekeke.

I miss all my friends and the time i had in the past.

But, it's the time now that matters, not the past.

Well. For now, i'm gonna stay devoted to my gf, to my family,
to my friends, and lastly, to my studies -_-

Hees.

Friends, I miss the time we had.

Irene.

I love you still the same.

You are the greatest present god ever gave me, hope he won't be naughty
and take you away from me again.

3rd month coming soon. Heehees.

Iloveyouuu. <33

Markkie
Long awaited
Signing off. =p

Overwhelming.

2009-02-10T17:35:00.002+08:00

Life is getting way out of hand.

Assignments and exams. 3 words for those.
W......
T......
F......

Hahas. Yet, its a blessing that things were going rather smoothly for me.
Got a good gf.
Have a bunch of frens that did not abandon me even when i abandoned them.
And im still living in a house and have food to eat, Thank goodness.

Anyway, it's going to be our third year soon, let's hope all my classmates
can work very hard for the upcoming exams.\

P.S. Dear moved to simei for the time being, which means we have lesser time together.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.........

Busy days ahead.

2009-01-29T16:17:00.002+08:00

SHAGGED~~

This few days will be very very tough and sian.
Cause it'll all be assignment assignment and more assignment.

Too bad for me lohs, no time to see my lao po.
Haix~

But we'll watch wedding game soon enough. Heex

Talking about movie, love matters, the new movie directed by jack neo simply.......
can't make the mark.

It's not as funny as the other movies of jack neo and worst of all,
it doesn't even have jack neo in it. HAHAHA

Enough about the movie, time is running out for me.
I'm gonna rush like hell for the sake of assignment...
SIAN~~~~!!!!

Do take care for all my friends.

And dear dear,
i pray you'll recover soon.
You're my life too =p
Take care dear.
ILOVEYOU!!!

I want it to be Never Ending

2009-01-26T00:57:00.003+08:00

Dear. It's our 2nd month anniversary.
Like i said before, it's a brand new start to us.
Let's hope our love is a never ending one.
i <33 u deeply my dear.

Markkie wishes to be forever with You. Is that possible?

Til the end.

2009-01-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

Went to chinatown with fion they all yesterday.
It's pretty crowded and i'm stunned to see the countless numbers of mei zheng xiang over there.
Such nice and hot place, hahas.

I was glad ystd dear dear was with me, although it's just a few hours but it's already enuff.
She's very sick now but i'm unable to accompany her today cause i'm currently still in scoo doing assignment.

Haix, time is really not enuff, wish i have more time for her.

I'll find time soon enuff to pei my qingg aii derh lao po, and in the meantime,
i wish she can take care of herself and don't eat too much heaty food. xD

-♥Irene-

Love of my life.

2009-01-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to my dearest Dear Dear Irene. =]

We've went through some rough patches just 2 days ago.

There were mistakes done by both side i have to say.

But me as a boyfriend, am not matured enough.

So the only thing i can do is.

Give her my all, my time, my love my everything.

I know i have not been a good boyfriend.

But i hope that, through all this problems, we learn, and we grow as a couple together.

I LOVE YOU dearly. You are precious to me. Really precious.

And you leaving me is the last thing that i ever want it to happen.

Lastly, all i wanna say is. We both commit mistakes.

But we made it through this time.

And from this little obstacles, i have found out that you are really special to me.

You didn't give me up because of the obstacles we faced.

You took a step to solve this problems.

I'm touched, really touched.

No words can describe how i feel when you are still right there for me.

I guess, the only word i can use. Is LOVE.

Dear.

I hope we can really be together for a long long time.

And no matter what happens to us, u will still find me here.

No matter where i am, i'll be there whenever u need me.

Be it together or not, i have a really deep etched love in me.

And that love, is just for you.

I love u and i miss you deeply.

Markkie lao gong to Irene lao po
=)

Beautiful Love.

2009-01-11T02:12:00.005+08:00

Forever, just don't seem enough.

Everything, is not even comparable to what i want to give.

Love. Is the only word i can use to describe the feeling i have whenever i'm with you.

I have fallen deeply in love with you and i'm gonna hold you tight till the end of time.

My one and only.

IreneLim

♥♥♥♥♥

Moderation.

2009-01-07T23:20:00.004+08:00

Life's a piece of shit now.

Assignments piling.
Upcoming school fees deadline.
Not a tinnie weenie glimpse of hope still lays forward.

But yet, it's all about moderation.

Saving up cash,
Moderation.

Using time wisely,
Moderation.

Be a little more optimistic about our future,
Maybe nothing to do with moderation, but it's good to be optimistic.

But regardless of all the hard times and stress oncoming.
Our love are still there keep us going on.
=)

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P.S.
Dear Dear XD,
my schedule is going to get more busy now,
got assignment, got final exams, need to work for school fees.

But nevertheless, i'll do my best to find time for you okay my dear.
Cause i remembered that day when i told you this,
"Time is important, therefore, it is used on the ones you love most".

And without a doubt, the one i love most,
is definitely you.

Dear, bear with me for a while okay.
When i have time already, i will definitely use my time to pei u.
Even when i don have time, i will try to squeeze out some time for u okae?
xp

Love u darling.
Heex.

I can't tell you.

2009-01-01T19:27:00.003+08:00

Here's a post today.

Went to raffles place yesterday with tze shuen,

had fun watching fireworks.

It was damn nice and i only watched it with him, how fcuking weird.

HAHAHA

Anyway, today's post is not about the firework.

i'm feeling kind of blissful right now.

I can't really explain this feeling.

Kinda sad, but still kinda happy, let me explain why.

I'm sad, cause my dear, irene is not with me.

I'm happy, cause i know she's the one i love and she is out there,

somewhere, missing me like how i'm missing her.

Dear.

I really love u,

i can't express it.

no matter how many time u ask me the same question,

on how much i love u.

i can't give u an answer.

The reason is simple.

I gave u all my heart since the day we are together,

my love, my thoughts, my everything.

I might not be that caring,

not be that considerate,

not be that great as a boyfriend.

But i will try my best to be the best boyfriend,

cause i simply love you my dearest darling =)

IreneLim I LOVE U!

What a survey~~~ xp

2008-12-31T16:57:00.005+08:00

RULE#1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.

These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

I, Markkie Heng have been tagged by Daryl

1. Do you have secrets?
Yes...Of course i do being a mysterious guy i am XD

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
Yes of course if there's feeling, but not now of course =x

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
If i still see any slightest opportunitites, it doesnt matter how long it takes.'

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Half of it will go to my grandma and my family, the rest will be for myself to keep things going. And definitely i'll invest in daryl's restaurant.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Never

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone, provided he/she loves you too, which makes ur love more worthwhile.

7.List out 3 favourite things that u love?
Family, my girl, friends

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i will try ways and means to establish absolutely no connection with her anymore. Like delete their contact,msn so that we will get the littlest possibililty of getting together again.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Looking at my loves one happy and smiling.

10. List 3 things you hate?
Girlfriend snatcher. Myself as i'm pretty self centered. Losing(I Love to win..kekeke)

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Trying ways and means to be a millioniare.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My Family

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
Since it's "Thing", den it's definitely my phone XD

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Single and rich. If i'm married but poor, i can't give the best to my spouse so no way i wanna be married but poor. If i wanna get married, pre-condition must be RICH!

15. What are your favourite colours?
Black

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
There must be one that i love more. Or else i just do a comparison on their appearance ir character etc.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Forgive, but i'll never forget.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
There will be times of sadness and sorrows, but no matter what tough time u r going thru, i will not leave u in the lurch. If i am a useless person and i can't help much, i jus wan u to know that at least im here for u.

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
Lovers. Not saying which is more impt, but when it comes down to making decisions, lover comes first. Sorry Buddies!! ^^

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
Ya definitely there is. =)

What a day.

2008-12-29T11:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a bad day for dear dear.
She fell sick.
Really really sick

Went down to take care of her and she looked really really tired.
Heartbroken sio see her like that.
All i can do was to watch her and do my best to take care of her.

Bought her some funny funny drink which the shop owner says it could cure flu,
and seems like the drink is doing pretty fine seeing how my dear dear felt better than yesterday.
^^

She get sick alot lately sia, don know what i can do to help her,
but i will be there to take care of her.Always
Take care of urself okae dear.
=)

1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

2008-12-25T10:41:00.002+08:00

Finally Dear
Our first month have arrived.

Needless to say, we have been through high and lows,
happiness and sadness, good times and bad times.
But after all these times, my love for u have never fade.

Not even once.

As time progresses, i found my love for u getting deeper and deeper every single day.
And now, you've become someone in my life that i cannot live without with.

I know,
we can't promise each other forever
but at least right now, u r the only one that i wanna spend my life with.

Forever.

I love u darling.
And no matter what happens, i will always be here for u.

-I LOVE U-

Just For You.

2008-12-20T03:12:00.006+08:00

Dear Dear.
This song is just for you
i ♥♥♥ you

♥ Forever

-你是我最深爱的女人-

♥Irenelim♥

爱上了一个人
能够为她牺牲
就算付出了生命
我甘心为了你

两个人在一起
分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记
我们生活点滴

你是我最深爱的女人
你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神
你带给我幸福和快乐

我是你最深爱的男人
我的爱绝对是永恒
做什么都值得
爱上了一个人

Long Awaited!!!!

2008-12-15T03:45:00.003+08:00

Hi guys it has been like YEARS since i updated.
At least not literally but i know you guys DEFINITELY missed me rites??
=p

Anyway have nothing to post really, jus posted for the sake of reminding all my friends that i'm still alive and kicking. Hope you all won't forget me, heehees.

Lastly, what im gonna say now is something from my heart, from the bottom of my heart actually. And that is....

GIRLFRIEND I LOVE YOU!!!!

Hahax i wonder if she's ever gonna see this but jus wanna tell her that i've left a place in my heart for her. She've left a mark so deep that it can't be erased, and i'm glad i've found someone like her.

Now my only wish, is for us to be together.
Forever.

GirlFriend will u grant my wish???
Heehees =p

Sorry for being so mushy (for all the viewers)
I promise all of u i will update my blog, but for when i will do that....

It's a secret.
WAHAHAHAHA

-Forever-

Continuation

2008-11-19T03:24:00.003+08:00

Here's what i promised.
What i really think a real MAN is made up of.

I think i'll just provide 5 simple criteria though.
So here goes!

1. Endurance
- Pain endurance have always being something that i look out for in a guy. Since i'm a basketball player, and a impatient one at that, i'll get really pissed off when i see a guy pausing the whole game just because he was injured. Call me cruel or inhumane, but unless you injured your dick which is totally pain unbearable max, i will find it hard to understand why you need to get so fuss up due to a knock on your teeth or an elbow to your face. =p

2. Decisiveness
- Being decisive is somewhat a very important factor as a man. Decide on what you want, and not go ahead with what everybody want, you will never know when people may be waiting for your decision too. So be a man and make that choice.

3. Responsibility
- Be responsible for what you do and be responsible for who you are. Whatever you do, you shall not owe others, not even in terms of favor. Be mindful of how you should be responsible toward others and make sure that you do not ill treat any one, especially your family and friends.

4. Generiosity
- Everyone should have a wee bit of generiosity in them. Being selfish in terms of monetary benefits will always give out bad impressions, causing detest upon ourselves.

5. Optimistic
- Getting stress over every small things in life gonna cost your life to get shorten by like 1 quarter or so(self exclaimed). Many things in life causes problems, but with problems there comes solutions. When one solution doesn't work, try an alternatives. You may ask, what if there is no more solution left? That's easy, make sacrifices to solve your problems!

I know i'm making it easy just by saying it, but seriously there's nothing in this world that could not be solved. And so what it can't be solve, just move on and there will be new challenges facing you. Make your life more meaningful by solving your problems instead of brooding over it.

Anyway, i'm done with my MAN's criteria philosophy or whatever bullshit it is.
This is my personal views and if i offended anyone...
It just means you are not man enough.
And if you are man enough,
you won't feel offended by what i say above.

So are you man enough?????
=p

-Deny-

fierce.

2008-11-12T20:59:00.004+08:00

I was in the train today.
Den this so call 'incident' happened.

The train stopped and it was on the busy timing i gotta say,
so the train stopped and this lady wanna alight. So the door opened
and she walked out, but there was this man who blocked her way by
standing right in the middle. So they remain in that position for around
2 seconds before the woman literally squeeze her way through.

OKae so first thing first.
WHAT THE FUCK is that man doing?
Simply take a step back and things go easier.
Better still, try and fucking let the passenger alight first.
And he have the guts to stare at the woman while she was squeezing her way through.

Yeah u heard me rght, he literally stared.
If he had made the "tsk" sound,
i'll be the one to push him off the train just before the door closed and fucking laugh at him.

"I'm in the train and u r not u fucking idiot. Go fuck yourself...MWAHAHAHAHA"

Okae a little bit extreme eh...heehees
But that's what i felt lah..if ur a man,
act as one.

Yes settled, my next post it's gonna be about what a real MAN should be.
And it's all gonna be based upon my expectations, which is not that shabby i gonna say.

So guys, watch out for the next post ^^

-Man gonna do what a man gonna do-

Gone.

2008-11-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

Yeah.
I'm gone,for good.
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NAHHHH!!!!

I'm just gonna come back and become myself once more, at least i hope.
Suffered setbacks or so to say. Now its all about forgetting forgetting and forgetting.

Nothing else.

I'm stupid, i guess.
I'm impatient, i think.
And i'm definitely not using my brain, that's for sure.

But why do i not care about it. I granted myself the permission to be stupid, thinking that not all stupid cases will get the same ending.

I let myself sucumb to my impatience, and acted without thinking of the consequences as i believed that there are always time when people do change for the sake of someone else.

I used my heart instead of my brain, a big mistake that is. Accepting for what they are thinking that being forgiving is the road to everlasting. That's bullshit.

Anyway since it's over, not gonna bring it up much longer.

Time to say bye peeps =)

-Stumble and Fall-

Emo's -

2008-10-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile'
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know, With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul,
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone,
with nowhere to go. I've come to an end,
I want you to know , with everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know.With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, '
as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

(I want you to know)With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

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Maybe no one will take the time to read or to listen.
But the lyrics up there with the song playing...
So please please please give me face and listen to it, Heehees

It's gonna stay as my favourite songs for one whole month i bet
Cause it's just so "Real" to me, i don't know what i'm saying but these lyrics's really close to my heart felt feelings.

That's all i can say i guess, the music, the dreadful lyrics of unweilding love
Haha guess im getting all funky and wacky here trying to talk about love.
But anyway, hope you all will enjoy the song =p

-Loves-

Loves~

2008-10-24T02:53:00.003+08:00

Actually, i'm here to voice out a thought that i have kept inside of me for a very long time....
It is very important and its meant for someone really special in my life...
It's the omnipotent 3 words that i'm gonna say it now, if you know you are the one....
U can choose to accept or reject...
i will even announce ur name at the end, so here goes..

I LOVE YOU.....

My dearest GrandMa!!!!

Hahax...

She called me two days ago to give me a morning call at 630am cause she knew i was often late for school....I know it's actually a really simple action but i don't really know why i'm so deeply touched....Must be because hearing her voice in the morning really brighten up my day..heehees

Thanks grandma for all the love and patience and forgiveness and money and money and money...

HAHAHA~

PLease....
Live a ripe old age.......
Thats for my Grannny =p

-Smile-

Loves~~~

2008-10-23T17:41:00.001+08:00

Start Again~

2008-10-17T16:46:00.004+08:00

Whew~~~~

Finally endured through the first week since school re-opened..

Time table sucks.
Majority of the time its waking up feeling blurry..watching the time clicking towards 630 in the morning, and always without fail, the same question will repeat....

"Why don't i skip school today?"

Hahax, what a guy i am...lacking that much of a discipline in my life.
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Wonder how i'll survive the bloody "Hell that every guy have to pass through with the sissy green and dirty uniform"...

Hees.

Anyway have been skipping out on my "wife" this past few weeks...
Miss her so much...
Miss touching her~
Miss having close physical contact with her~
Miss looking at her bouncing right infront of me~

Yeah u guessed it right...Have been missing out on BASKETBALL for such a LONG time~
Hahahaha~
Just got to play yesterday for a little bit..not gonna be enough though..
Miss those days when i was still in secondary school..basketball life was full of injury, blood and pain...Those were the time when improvement were fast and sense of achievements was great..

Now, it's all just about winning.
No good plays-
No Teamwork-
No cheers-

Just winning...

Hahax guess basketball sort of stepped into the "SOCIETY".
Win in order to continue playing..just like the working society where everyone did thier very best just to stay in the job...But in the end, no one enjoys the process in both cases...

The above statement is for me and solely for me alone...not pinpointing on anybody cause i'm not really sure how many out there are actually as dire to win as me..=p

End of today's post peeps..it's kinda boring and awful but you'll never know what good stuff you'll get from me on the next post. So stay Tuned.

-Empty-

Out of my league...

2008-10-11T21:05:00.003+08:00

What if...

He's/She's out of your league
He's/She's not someone you want
He/She does things that you don't really like
He/She live a life way different from yours
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Just some random thought, was wondering how many had faced this problem...

Many a time, we let our heart wins.
We let our heart takes over our mind and senses.
We knew exactly what will happen when we let our heart win.
We ignore it thinking that we could change the opposite party to THE ONE we had in mind

Guess what...
There was no happily ever after....

So here's the solution(Not pretty usable but it's something that i would like to accomplish myself =p)

1. Love for who they are
2. Adapt to what they do
3. Care for how they feel
4. Forgive for what they've done

These are some really simple steps to SAY...But it may just be the hardest to ACCOMPLISH..
Anyway this post is meant for nobody, just something i had in mind for myself
SOunds abit EMO though..hurhurhur
Look out for next post peeps..i'll make the next one as cheerful as possible
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Maybe i'll spice it up with more GAY incidents...heehees
That's all for today =)

-Smile-

Back For Real!!!

2008-10-06T22:15:00.005+08:00

A BIGGGGGGG Hello to all of you out there...

i'm Finally Back!!!
Heex

First things first, for all of you that misses me..do not be cause i'm finally back with you all again through my blog =p

Secondly....maybe i'll write about some interesting incidents that happen to me during this past one month.

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After a pretty deep thought..i found nothing interesting except for maybe one....

some of u may had already heard this,but most didn't so here goes...

One night i was walking towards Orchard MRT station as my workplace was located at isetan
scotts. Not long after my draggy walk, i heard someone shouted, "SO CUTE". So as the humble gentleman that i am, i didn't even turn around and react to it. Right after that came a loud"ASSCUSE MEE!!". So now being the curious type, i turned around and saw 3 ah guas smoking and waving their hands signalling me to go towards them!

Yes Ah Gua....You Heard me

IS AH GUAAA!!!!

WHY!!
WHY MUST THIS FUCKING HAPPEN TO ME!!

okae maybe i was being over reacting, but why isn't it 3 prety girl =(
and anyway i have other few experiences with genders not opposite of mine..so i'm getting really pissed...grrrr

hahax..just to let you all know im interested in guys when it comes to BASKETBALL, CHATS , OR MAKING FRIENDS..That's all okay =p

Anyway...if you all missed me please tag me okae, wil be really touched if i see ur tags, you may even get a kiss from me..if one's not enough i'll be glad to give 2

please don vomit wherever u are ;)

-Stay Tune-

Hello!!!!

2008-10-02T02:09:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Am back for a really short post....Hope you all got miss me =p
i will post a short clip from the movie "Disaster Movie".

This clip is definitely not for the weak hearted so if you possesses any heart problems or symptoms of it,skip the vids.
Enjoy it IF U CAN....please watch finish anyway ^^

anyway more posts will be coming up soon so please stay tune =)

Oops

2008-09-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hi guys...some GUNDU asked me after school no need update le ah
I'm too busy working whenever i reach home i'm dead beat...SO

NO POST TILL OCTOBER!!!!!

Heehees...Here's a formula for what i am feeling right now.

Work = No Time

No time = No blogging, no bballing, no MSN-ing til late in the midnights, and no Manga reading til 5am

No blogging, no bballing, no MSN-ing til late in the midnights, and no Manga reading til 5am = No Life

Therefore Work = No Life!!!!
Look forward for the post in october!!!!!!

*tIRED*

I'm gonna wake up everyday getting sick, cause i know what will happen evrydae in this exact same life...

2008-08-28T22:00:00.008+08:00

It's over
It's over

It's Finally Over

Hehehe, there goes all the papers we have, and i celebrated it with a game of basketball =)
Damn relieved now..okae another CHIKOPEK event happen today, and i'm guilty of it =(

Exam finished, had lunch with my friends and we were on the way back home. In the train ride i saw this:

Pretty nice cleavage eh....but nooooooooooo~~~~~~
what i saw was from an AUNTIE!!!

OH MY GOD!!!! HOW FCUKING NICE WAS THAT...
although i'm CHIKOPEK.....it was still too........ewwwwww!

And glad my very cutie, fun sized FIDAH was there to share the agony wif me =p
She was using her jacket to block herself from...ya you know..and how i hope she was there to block mine...hur hur hur...

By the way guys, i just took a GLANCE,
just a GLANCE..no more no less

hahahahaha

In the end have to stand at a very awkward position and turn away since that bloody train its so crowded...hahax...how i hope she was 20 years younger ;)

Hahax, so aunties, i'm sorry for complaining about it. BUT anyone out there who gets agitated by my post today please inform me though, i'm doing a "ARE YOU AN AUNTIE " survey as i need some feedbacks...kekeke

So that's all for today, left a few more days to have some well deserved "Play Time" before i start to work on september 2nd....JIAYOU!!!

BY the way, for any "Boreson" out there , which means bored person, here's a blog for you...
i'm Having alot of fun from reading this blog and i respect the man that wrote this. I gotta admit, it's abit gore, vulgar or sometimes Really disgusting....but, this is a man who wrote his thoughts out in such a way, you gotta agree with what he says!

Hahax, that was a bit exaggerating, but 'm really having a good time reading his posts...here's the link:

http://www.thatbloodycritic.blogspot.com/

FOr guys, i think you definitely should try it, for girls.....Hmmm

Think about it first

Hehe..that's all for today...

*Lifeless*

Stupid ass!

2008-08-28T06:23:00.005+08:00

JUST REACHED HOME !!!!!

Current time is 6:22 am having my paper at 2pm later...hahaha

HAVEN STUDY YET!

*Good Luck*

Rants!

2008-08-26T14:09:00.005+08:00

So today was the end of the PAPER from HELL....

There goes my GPAs..haha, just found out that i can't bring myself to stop complaining about this bloody test paper. Normally i would have finish a test paper in one hour but bloody hell, this test wouldn't let my mind take a break until there is 15 more minutes left to 2 hours.

So enough of this test, glad that it's over though.

Next up is my last paper, i don't really know what this module is about, can't bother to find it out also. But it's gonna be WAYYYYY easier than my BUOM test, which i can't score even if i "burn all eat all study all..."

HAHAHAHAHA

Last paper on this Thursday, i believe if i burn the textbook up, put it in some coke or soda and drink it, i will be able to pass with flying colors....kekeke

So for now....BASKETBALL!!!!
Thats all of my complain for today. Its being great knowing that there are actually people out there got nothing to do come see me complain here complain there...heehee

*Stagnant Mind*

WAIT!!!!!
Don't leave yet...There's one songs i would like all of you to hear, it's soothing to my ear but not sure about you..haax

It's called "helpless when she smile" by BACKSTREET BOYS
Look for the song yourself, you wouldn't wanna listen to it if i post it cause my profile songs gonna make you mad though =p
Enjoy!!!

Just a piece of paper...

2008-08-25T12:32:00.005+08:00

Finally, tomorrow's the big day...

For my BUOM paper...

For your information BUOM = Business Operation Management, and it totally suck.

Although i am really interested about the various processes that subsides within a business,and how by making full use of it we could maximize profits. Yet, this module suck, and it all thanks to the lecturer with his "University" standard of english.

I remember one time, just a few weeks ago he go through a past year paper with us which was pretty "Alien". I was hoping he would explain how the hell by looking at the question he could come up with the answer, yet he simply wrap it up with "Its all common sense, you don't have a clue about it u can go die.".

Although he was just joking,but WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE THINKING.

He was the one who set the paper with his sibeh chim english, and for a moment there he didn't understand what he was writing about he actually came up with the wrong answers, OH MY GOODNESSSS!!!

I was chatting with my school fren about this, and there was this classic quote...eh maybe not quote cause "Quote" this word is too classy for her..hahaha, let's say it is just a complain. We were talking about how the hell we are supposed to study for this particular paper, and she came out with this phrase,

"even burn the book eat all remember all also wont score"

She made my day oh my god, i'm not really sure you all thought it was hilarious but i'm still laughing. Use your imagination peeps, this paper is so hard, u can't even score with the above "Quote"...hahaha =)

That's it, i'm pretty sure all of you who read this will wish me luck for the paper...heehees

*Concentrate*

Hmmmmmmm.....

2008-08-23T20:15:00.009+08:00

And so...we lost the game today...1st round second match =(

So enough about that, a topic surrounded my attention today, rather not just one maybe two topics.

1. Music

2. Woman

Why these 2 topics?

if u were a good fren of mine, u would probably know these are two of the things that i enjoyed most in comparison with basketball.

I got rather hyped up in music todae due to a rather insignificant guy to most of u, but rather someone that i'm pretty fa-mi-liaris-ed with. Xiaobai

NOpe, not the dog of Crayon Shin-Chan, but a rather pretty male species named tze shuen, someone i knew since i was in primary school.

His brain suddenly went pik piak pik pik piak, and suddenly told me to sing some really old songs.

The list:

1. Chun Zai by 5566

2. Wu Suo Wei by 5566

3. Ting Hai By zhang Hui Mei

and the list goes on, it was too old for me to sing it anyway thus i can't really remember it.

I sang all those, trust me, even TING HAI..i sang it without hesitation, i mean,at least i tried though...kekeke

It was pretty crazy singing all that bullshit to a guy in banquet at causeway point level 6, but trust me, it's fun ;)

Haax..that pretty summed up the music topic that i wanted to mention, cause i tot it was pretty stupid and i need to voice it out for xiaobai, cause he was the one who actually ignited the musical "Flame" in me. And by the way, i like punk rock, anyone with good recommendations please don keep it to yourself. HEEX *Burn For the love of music*

Next topic, W-O-M-A-N.

With no offence, i would like to ask a serious question( This question applies to those who does or does not involve with the following action mentioned below)

Why do some girls likes HIGH exposure on their bodies?

Firstly, to ask this question, you either have to be a real CHIKOPEK, or simply someone who is just trying to show his ego about how much he protects the women's attractive flesh......

I'm a pure CHIKOPEK, if that answers ur question =p

I don't really know how some guys could tolerate their girlfriend wearing REALLLYYY short skirts and shirts that are pretty LOOSE at the top. And girls, if u are wearing those, why bend down to pick up things with BOTH HANDS, or sit down by keeping ur TWO LEGS apart???

Hahax..that's my personal views. Although i personally would want to overturn whatever i said above, but just some random thoughts that i wanna voice it out cause i've seen pretty much what i've wanted to see already, so no point showing it more girls.

AHHHHHHHHHH WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Thats all for today, Lastly girls...try not to be like her, cause i bet i'll do the same thing =]

*Beware*

lost....

2008-08-22T18:16:00.002+08:00

Its raining, its dark

Felt really empty like im missing something...What am i missing??? I really don't know and i don feel really good about it. I wanna shout out loud loud but i can't, cause im still at home...Hahax

Today is a pretty "Blue" day, no mood for anything and it feel like living in this world is pointless. No worry no worry..not attempting suicide...Just felt that the world has been overwhelmed by boredom.

Lets hope by due time i could grasp the very meaning of my existence in this world, but well...im pretty sure reproduction may just be part of the duties that i haven been given by god =p

let's hope it not the ONLY duties that god had given me cause it will make me feel really useless...kekeke

*Aimless Shit*

A little too late for luck....

2008-08-21T18:31:00.004+08:00

2 more papers to go
2 more days to my basketball competition
2 late for any luck!!!!

Having a competition this saturday, its going to turn out bad for sure...we have no good players, definitely not talented and we don't have the best size.

What can prevent us from losing?

NOTHING.

Still, we are going to do it anyway, this is a good time for us to measure where we really stands and what we should improve on.

For my teammates: Work hard for it even if it cost our life =p

*Wish For The Best*

Flunked!

2008-08-21T09:33:00.001+08:00

What about......

Not studying for the rest of my paper!

Too bad i can't do that, but i totally flunked my first paper!!!!
No more for today peeps ^^

*Depress*

i need brain POWER!!!!

2008-08-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

wish me luck
wish me luck
wish me luck
wish me luck

cause im having my test in another 7 hours time but im still studying~

current time: 1:00 am
Exam time: 9:00 am

LUCK!!!!!

First Timer here...Hello everyone =p

2008-08-19T14:20:00.004+08:00

First time blogging....and since im not an appearance-wise guy, i've decided to let my blog be plain like me...wahahaha...forgive me for the "plain-li-ness"(don know how to spell) =)

First thing first, the reason i created this blog is to share, obviously. From time to time, i have so many things to say but just can't find the right place to say it, so there, my blog is finally created...heehee
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'You all may ask..."So long alwedi, now den got something to say, u Geh Siao Ah"

Hahax...the reason why up til now den i publish my thoughts is because of a recent event, or to say an unfortunate event happened.

Last week, my great grandma passed away at the ripe age of 93(if im not wrong)...i went to the funeral for the sole purpose of consoling my grandma....My one and only grandma that i love so much had just lost her mother, so as her favourite grandson i have to act my part and do my best to make her feel better.

So after the usual routine of chanting all those(which i don't understand even a word), we carried alot of stuffs to a plain field. Those stuffs were to be burnt so that my great grandma could receive it in the other world. So after everything is done, we took a short walk back to where the funeral was held. I was the only one walking with my grandma now, and while holding her hands, she said this, "Mark boy ah (what she alwaes called me), Ma Ma jiu zhe yang mei you liao. (It means my mum is gone or some sort.)"

At that point of time, i heard more than a tinge of sadness in her voice, trembling and near to the brink of breaking down. But what happened next was enuff to bring me to tears. She held back her tears which i believe was so, and said, "ni yao hao hao zhao gu ni ma ma, ying wei ni zhi you yi ge ma ma, mei you jiu shi mei you le" (you must take good care of ur mother, cause once gone, u will never get to see her again.) I felt so useless on the spot, i wasn't able to console her yet she was able to remind me about how important my family is. i am deeply thankful to her for all those help and preaching that she provided me over the years, and im really proud to have such a young and mentally strong grandma =)

Haax..i guess i have done a really long post..not too bad for a first timer eh...hehehehe...

So guess i will post next time in case u all gets really bored on this long long post...

*I'll be back*